I'm going to miss you :(

I have so many things I wish I could say to you, for instance I miss you and I should have known that i was gonna lose you if I didn't step it up. I never knew how much i loved you till you were taken from me.. My heart hurts when i think about you and you going away.. I don't think I can stand it. It is just so hard to wrap my mind around it. To think just last year we spent every weekend together NOTHING could come between us you were my BEST friend :/ But I always screw everything up and hurt myself. I know I can be a bitch but its because I care SO much about you, and for some reason you can't see it... It feels like just yesterday I was over at your house laying on the couch with you and we were arguing , like usual, but I miss it. I miss your hugs, I miss your smell, I miss EVERYTHING about you. And you wont even take an hour out of your day to talk to me anymore. I'm lucky to get a text from you once a month. I don't even want to know what its gonna be like when you leave. I already cry about you leaving, but you never seem to believe me. It hurts me more then you think, I just try to hide my weaknesses cause everyone loves to put me down and make me feel like dirt. :/

I HATE DUMB B****'s

For real... Can you not get a guy on your own, you think you constantly have to walk into my life and take the guy that i am talking to. Who do you think you are, you are obviously nothing special, you aren't a good friend. I should have known since middle school that you were NEVER going to be a good friend to me. I hate how people are two faced now a day's. Then when i walk into where you work you think you are hot crap and can talk about me like I don't know. WELL obviously i'm not stupid, and you and your little friends need a reality check. Cause its getting old. If you are going to try and be my friend again don't waste your breath because I WILL NEVER i repeat NEVER be your friend EVER AGAIN.

Unwanted

How come every time I walk in to my house I feel unwelcome, like I am a stranger and I had just broke in. I am so tired of my step dad giving me the third degree. For real, who do you think you are, you are no better then me you have to be a dick just to get your point across cause you do not know how to treat people right.  To receive respect you have to also be able to give it. And he does not know how to act his age. He parents like his father who also didn't know how to talk to kids. I am so done at this point, I miss the way my mom used to be with me but only two more years in this hell hole then i can move out and get an apartment and go to college.

Why are people so FAKE?

WOW! I havent posted on here in forever! lol. Just gonna say had a good weekend but got my ipod stolen, Im so sick of fake people, come on. They had the nerve to take my car for 2 hours straight and use ALL my gas then steal my ipod. Jeez, some "REAL" friends i got there.

I love my friends to death but sometimes they dont get the words "leave me alone" or "leave it alone, its my problem not yours". They dont understand that I dont want them to get involved because I can handle the situation myself. Im a big girl, I know how to stand up for myself. And im not scared to. People may think they intimidate me but just wait till one of these days and someone says the wrong thing at the wrong time and I just freak out on them. Like this guy called me fat on Tuesday, im over it, but are my friends? Nope. and all they do is makes the situation worse.

Immature people piss me off.

I hate the fact that I have to be in a class with a bunch of immature idiots. Seriously, you are sophomores in high school. get real. You may be cool right now but guess what, in college and at your job you wont be top dog anymore. You all think you are so amazingly awesome. But the funny thing is no one really likes you cause you are mean to EVERYONE. For no reason.. Some of you I can stand cause when you aren't around your popular friends you are actually pretty cool, but when you clique comes around you turn into a total ass. Nobody likes a self centered douche bag. Just sayin.

Exciting shiz!

Im so excited to be 16 like words cannot explain! I get to basically be free, is how I see it. And I wont have to depend on my mom to take me where I want to go. Im also excited to make RAINBOW cupcakes with my mom tonight! It should be fun. And I hope they turn out good cause im not going to bring crappy looking cupcakes to school haha. That would be embarrassing. I think im going to go out for dinner on my birthday with my friends not sure which friends though, cause alot of them will be gone due to the fact that it is Easter weekend. :) which is exciting cause I get to see my family! And I LOVE my family so much. They are all so funny!